So noone told you life was gonna be this way....

So... What do you do when you wake up with the mother of all headaches and a foul mood.. Not because you got wasted but because you cried yourself to sleep last night.. *sigh!*

So what do you do when you THINK you are making it through tough times, with awesome friends and work and silly crushes and losing a couple of pounds and looking greater than ever before? You rejoice right? You are supposed to feel good about yourself, because damnit, your life’s great. But the catch word was ‘think’… because life has a way of coming right back at you and telling it to your face that everything isn’t ok yet. With no hopes of it getting ok either.

Why do people say things that hurt, that cut so deep and so bad, that the words actually keep repeating themselves over again even after they are already said. Why does it happen that silly girls like me fall for the WRONG guys?? *sarcastic laugh* Why is it so that people become important to you, slowly creeping into your heart without even a whisper and it doesn’t hit you till you reach a point where it starts to hurt that you will never mean the same?

And what do you do when that happen anyway?

You spend the whole Sunday, dressed in your favorite PJ’s, the most comfortable faded old tee, sitting with a extra big tub of chocolate chip ice-cream and watch the oldest episodes of F.R.I.E.N.D.S. … and wish life would have been that easy. *sigh!*

Annie.
P.S: I know I haven’t been regularly posting here, so I thought I could drop in every once a while with miniature rants. *sigh!* I promise to NOT be this grumpy always.
P.P.S: I SO know now what Rachael felt when Ross got off that plane with Julie in tow. (Yeah I hav been watching Season 1 back to back) *sigghh!!!*

Happy Bday!

Dearest Sweetheart,

Wish U manyyyy manyyyy happy returns of the day!!! :) Hope u hav an amazing time today, starting NOW!!!! :)

Luv,

Annie :)

Finally the Tag!!!!

OneThoughtOn had tagged me like AGES ago... But with work, n (tryin to) stay away from the blog, reading other blogs, etc etc... I didnt get the time to put it up. My apologies. But alls well now, just handed in a big project, nothing to do for the weekend, except shop shop and more shop. :P So here it is, My "four" Tag :)



4 places I have lived:
1. Mumbai (Goregaon West)
2. Mumbai (somewhere midway between Goregaon and Malad)
3. Mumbai (Malad West)
4. Mumbai (somewhere different in Malad West)

:P
(I have stayed here all my life and DO NOT plan on shifting anywhere out. EVER.)


4 TV shows I love to watch:
1. F.R.I.E.N.D.S (who doesnt? :P)
2. HIMYM (Totally in love with Barney :D)
3. CSI (NY & Miami both) :P
4. Big Bang (Sheldon is awesome! :P)



4 places I have been on vacation:
I havent travelled much, though I would really love to. I have been on mini vacations - shorts visits to relatives scattered all over India, so ill pick my top four :
1. Hyd whn I had just started college. :)
2. Goa - 2nd year trip with VJ Wizards
3. Shimla-Manali - 3rd year trip with again the wizards
4. North Again - Final year trip with Wizards, yet again! :)


4 of my favorite food:
1. Prawns :P (BIG sea foodie :P)
2. Pav Bhaji - Im a mumbaikar, what do u expect? :P
3. College ki canteen ka ragda samosa :)
4. Anythng from KFC :)

*basically anything that ISNT south indian. I totally hate south indian food :P No offence!! Some of my best friends are southies (refer: dimpled angel) :)*


4 websites I visit daily:
1. PlanetSourceCode
2. CodeProject
3. Facebook/Orkut :P
4. Blogger :)



4 places I’d rather be:
1. Inorbit Mall :P :D Damn!!! D mall closed on time today but my shopping wasnt yet over :P :D
2. Atlanta :( :( *Miss u sweetypie*
3. A friend in another city needs a hug. Wish I was there giving it myself, instead of over the phone.
4. The bed? I m sooo sleepyy!!! :P


4 novels I love: (changed original question, cz it didnt make sense to me :P)
1. A Thousand Spendid Suns
2. Kite Runner
3. If Tomorrow comes
4. Bartimaeus Triology :)




4 movies I can watch over and over again:
1. A walk to remember
2. RDB
3. Step Up 1,2
4. Lion King 1, 1 1/2, 3 :)


4 things I hope to do before I die:
1. Bungee Jumping , Scuba Diving
2. Buy my dream home, just like I had always imagined all my life :)
3. Visit all places on d 100 places to see before u die list
4. Feel impossibly, crazily, amazingly loved by a silly man I can always call my own.


4 people I want to tag:
Not tagging anyone. anyone who finds it interesting can do it, n leave a link in d comments. :)

- Annie.
P.S: Life is strange *grumbles*

My First (Office)ial Rant :P

I like the sound of Software Developer. A LOT. *grin*

Sigh!! I can be refered to as a working woman (wht? noooo :O working girl) now. A week into my new job, Im already frustrated enough to dish out profanities. :P :D Lolz. No no, kidding..!!! Just a lil bit of whining. :)

Damn do I miss college or what? :( I miss meeting up with friends and hanging out and having the time of our lives. I miss college and the basketball court and the canteen and every blade of grass in the comps dept. :( Bt sigh!! The college days are all gone and Im pushed into the IT world. N so far, it has been crazyyy!!! Presenting a list of my outbursts over the week :-

1. Why the hell were heels invented? Why the hell am I so short? Why cant I wear sneakers to work? Who said converse doesnt go with churidars? ARGHH!!! :

2. The first week of college, and my SIX year record is flushed rather unceremoniously down the train - of NEVER EVER have missed a train in my life. My personal best was when I was thrusting money into the autowalas hand, who seemed half asleep and the train was pulling into the FOURTH platform. N one week of work, I missed not one, not two, but THREE trains to work! :O (reasons: dupatta goin haywire, heels making it impossible to crush someone foot, ather getting ur own crushed and all ladies existing between Virar to Borivili stuffed into ONE coach!!)

3. I always liked travelling by buses. Its a nice place to listen to songs, read books, complete assignments, observe funny people, talk on d phone, hum to urself... That is I thought so, before last week happened to me : First I discovered, that out of the odd million people who stay in Mumbai, almost all stay at Andheri, and more than half of them work at SakiNaka, and HAVE
to catch the same bus as mine : That meant a bus ki line that started at some god forsaken bustop, and went on n on n on.. all d way onto the railway bridge!!! Second I found out to my horror, that the rule *ahem* "Ladies First" doesnt apply anymore, and so I ended up all battered and bruished at work my very third day. As of next week, I will assume catching a
bus to work akin to goin for battle and dress accordingly :P

//That does it wid the REACHING part
(see i m even using coding notations in here.. lolz.. '//' stands for commented lines)

4. I reach work, d wind knocked out of me, my preciously made hair all haywire (I stopped bothering with it second day onwards), wet from the sudden onslaught of rains, and i find that the AC is turned up to freeze me into a human icicle. No it cant be turned down. Yes you may wear a sweatshirt (Thnk god). So tht makes me the only grl in history who wears a old faded (dhapped) sweatshirt over churidar-kurtas :P

5. I get my own new brand new system (Yayyy), but it is filled with SOOOO many things, it makes the 4GB RAM cry in despair :P :D I wud hav gone into technical details here, ghost processes n all. :P lekin jaane do. :P (see, i m even TALKING technical now. sigh.) Afterthought - even my lappy works faster :P on a measly 2 GB :)...

6. Got ragged by every senior member on the company board, one of which turned out to be an advertisement actor. lolz. (colgate ki ad ka dentist is my boss :P :D) They made me sing :P Work Place rocks!!! They are a fun loving lot, fridays ko timepass karte hai aur weekends pe sports!! yippeee!!! looks like basketball has a hope after all.. (sings. dances. smiles gleefully.)

7. Instruction on first day : Use Skype to chat. U will get free food, order what u want, U can do whtever u want with the internet (excellent speed btw) , dress smartly, formals NOT necessarily required. (thnk godd!!!)

8. Coding has been fun so far, but each passing day it is getting harder. For instance, does anyone even realize what all jhol-jhamela I have to do, to get tabs for new windows lik there in IE and firefox? sigh. I m STILL working on it. :P (side effects: I talk and analyze situations in terms of if-then-else, switch-case, try-catch, do-while :P :D) oh n ya, ASP.NET is the best thing that
ever happened to the coding world :D (all u JAVA guys *thumbs down*)

9. 1 week, and my daily consumption of coffee went from a cup every now and then, to minimum 3 cups a day :P Strangely that is the only thing that cures my all-too-frequent headaches now :) Today I tried tea, it was good !!! :)

10. (conversation between me and frnd sitting NEXT to me) :
me : I can see wht ur doin (evil laugh)!!!!
her : jaa naa kamini... kaam kar.. break over
me : chal coffee lene jaate hai
her : bore ho raha hai, tu ja
me : haa, ab toh merese baat kyu karegi shanii :(
her : nautanki saali :P
me : (content supressed) :P
her : (content supressed. google wale suffer minor heartattck) :D
me : btw, aaj kaunsa din hai? 4th? 5th?
her : 5th... HAHAHAHA... chal party.
me : yessss, 5 din ka 5000 in hand.. hehehe :P :D
her : no in bank. :( 1st ko celebrate karenge
me : hahahaha.... chal chal ab status change kar, "busy at work"
(gtalking :P :D)

So thats it, from my side. :)
Applause plzz!!! :P

Annie
P.S: onethoughton's TAG coming up next.
P.P.S: Last, one good bye post. Cz tht will mark the end of my blog.

Rains..

*I wrote this a longgg time back, but i never put it here, cz well, a lot of things i write dont find their way here anyway... it was just one of those things...

anyway, since its raining rain posts all over blogville, here is My Rain Post *

Sights, smells and sounds… those are the things that define memories for me. Memories are the things that I remember with amazing clarity… all it takes is a moment to close my eyes and feel it all over again…

One of my most favorite things in the world is to watch the rains. There was this time when , I used to be the first one out there…drenched to my skin, happy , oblivious to the hardships of life. It was like timeout, u know. Just forget everything. All that matters is the pitter patter of the rain drops… the winds in the background… and the skies the color of molten iron. Somewhere along the way the little girl had to grow up. Now she’s on the other side of the window. Just watching and reminiscing about those days…

Rains.

There’s so much about them that I cant forget….
Memories of carefree childhood.
Memories of first day to school… year after year… of home and being tucked safely under the soft cozy bedcovers… as it poured outside..
Memories of two best friends beginning a ritual of treating each other every time they met (which is like once a year) … that will last forever…
Memories of time with friends discovering the joys of being a college going student…discovering the infinite possibilities of stuff to do when u r free…

And of course…Memories of love.
Memories of being kissed for the very first time… in the light drizzle in the middle of nowhere… a sweet memory of just a peck on the cheek… just as beautiful even after all these years…
Memories of passionate kisses while getting wet in the rain… with someone who disliked the rains as much as I loved them. Feel the odd combination of the cold rain outside and searing heat within…
Memories of being locked up in a small cozy place as it poured outside. Feel the hand slip down the arm, pulling me closer. Can u imagine still feeling the breath tht ruffled your hair even though it happened a lifetime ago?
Memories of crashing waves and rushing winds as we strolled down the bandstand… then seaface…
Memories of the college quad… silent… and the basketball and us…
Memories of dreams coming true… in the world where they still existed.

People moved on. Hearts got broken. Life changes and so do the people who held a special place once upon a time. We all move on. We all have to forget things. Vacuum out the dust to make way for sometime new. Some people are not meant to be together. And some are supposed to be there even though they think they ought to go away. Everything changes. Some of the people who are there as a part of all these memories don’t even exist in my life anymore. Atleast not in the real sense. But they will continue to be there as long as I have these memories.

And even though some hurt me bad… the memories don’t hurt anymore. They are just there… thinking about them is like watching a movie that u have seen before. You know what’s gonna happen and u know that no matter how hard you cry, you cant change the end. Its sort of like that. There will come a time when everything will be worth it and when that day comes, the memories will make u realize that… Sometimes the worst things that happen to you… are actually the best ones… think about it...

Annie.
P.S: The pic is courtesy Arnab, one of my nicest blogger friends. :) And also my Bengali Teacher. So far all I hav learnt is "Kaemon acho?" :P :D

P.P.S: And thanks to Prince Ali too, who told me a long time back that I ought to put this on the blog. :)

New Blog!!! :) :) :)

Hey ppl!!!
I just started a new blog. For d reason why I started one when I have this one here and another almost dead one too, plz plz go there and see....
http://www.pinkperiwinkles.blogspot.com/
I promise, d place ISNT pink (for pink haters lik Mona, Pam, Karan :P )
After HOURS of searching I FINALLY found a template where I fell in love at first sight. And hence now, finally its open to all of you.. :) :)
Hav fun, Hope u'll like it. :)

Lotssss of luvvv,
Annie :)
P.S: Pam, n whoever else thinks the url is toooo girly, NOT one crack abt d name, : i like it as it is. If u dont knw wht periwinkles are, google it!!! :P :)

P.P.S: GOD!!! d amount of ppl who asked me wht periwinkles are !!! someone (ahem! :P) even asked me wht are 'winkles' cz apprently pink peri means somethng!!! lolz lolz. :P so here it is. !!! (rolls eyes) wht ya u ppl!!! :P

Masquerade Lovers

In a room full of people.. Long coats and pretty dresses,
And painted faces, bright with every color,
Between us is a dance floor, glinting and bare,
And the music beckons us on…

Our eyes meet across the room,
And I can’t pull my gaze away, you captivate me so..
It’s dangerous, this feeling, like a drug,
Recklessness and the thrill..

We walk towards each other, holding our gaze still,
Meet in the middle of the dance floor, the lights on us..
We don’t talk, hiding behind feathered masks,
No Words get in the way..

You take my hand and spin me across the floor,
Did you feel that tiny charge that shivered down my spine?
As you pulled me in your arms.. so close to you..
That mute sigh that escaped my lips...

Nothing so intimate, as the touch of your hand on my waist,
And my hand on your shoulder, and our fingers intertwined,
This rhythm we dance to, like it was made for us,
Like you were made for me...

Its sin.. The way your eyes strip me..
Down to my deepest core, leaving me vulnerable,
Your ivory mask is cold beneath my fingertips touch,
But d heat in your eyes sears me through and through…

We hide behind our masks, and our fine dresses,
And we play the little pretend game,
Of being perfect and beautiful, when we might be not,
No words said, just our eyes do the talk..

The music stops now, you hold my gaze a bit longer,
You bow. I curtsy. The dance is over.
Masquerade Lovers... that’s what we were,
We lived a love story in that one dance,
And then we left, two opposite directions, you & I,
Never to ever meet again...

Annie...

P.S: I found the pic first, and it inspired me to write the poem... I told ya, I m weird!! :)

I stood outside in the rain today...

I know from the sound...That the rains coming down
I know it from the sweet smell of earth... That the rains are here
And I know it from the loneliness that wells up in my heart
You aren’t here beside me...N That the rains are here...

I stood outside in the rain today,
Hugging myself as the rains soaked me to the bone,
Wishing it might wash away with itself,
What there is left inside of me...

I stood outside in the rain today,
And watched as the lightning flashed across the sky,
I like it out here, cold and wet, I m just a random Nobody,
No one even need know that I’m even there…

I stood outside in the rain today,
Tired of hiding behind the happy mask and the pretend smile,
And the rain does not let me lie anymore.. or hide anymore,
All this pain in my heart, while slowly each day I’m dying...

I stood outside in the rain today,
My tears leaving black streaks down my face,
And the blankness in my eyes is my sorrows only trace..
But this time I can blame it on the rain...

It’s raining today, and everything reminds me of you,
Making me wonder if you still love the clown-girl from your yesteryear…
She’s all grown up now, no dreams lighting up her eyes anymore
She’s all grown up now… But she still misses her Ro...

Yours,

An's...

P.S: There’s so much more to say.. But I’m afraid this will leave me feeling more empty than what I started with.. So Ill stop now..

P.P.S: "Pyar tumhe kitna karte hai... Tum yeh samaj nahi paoge.. Jab hum na honge toh bolo kya tab aaoge...."

Theres something abt u...

Theres something abt the way u laugh...

Dat makes me go all warm inside...

Theres something abt the way you say my name...

Dat makes me wish u wud say it again...

Theres something abt the way u make me wait...

Dat makes me half frown and half smile...

Theres something abt the way u flirt...

Dat makes my heart go hop, skip and jump..

Theres something abt the way u talk to me for hours...

Dat makes me lose all sense of time..

Theres something abt the way I miss u whn ur gone..

Dat makes me realize this time its different...

Theres something abt the way u leave things a lil halfway...
Dat makes me think abt u.. way past bedtime...
Theres something abt the way u make me think abt u...
Dat makes me grin to myself, hiding my face in my pillow.. :P

Theres something abt the way u msg me every morning..
Dat makes me reach for my phone, even thru barely awake eyes..
Theres somethng abt the ":D" tht u send me everyday..
Dat makes me smile foolishly thru the day..

Theres something abt the way u flare up whn someone else flirts wid me...

Dat makes me grin a lot inwards.. though I never show it...

Theres something abt the way u say "Pleeasshh Smillleeee"...

Dat makes me feel lik the girl wid d prettiest smile in d whole wide world.. :)

Theres somethng abt u boy...

Dats made me lose my heart to u... :)

Annie..
P.S: Foolish, Silly, Stupid... i know i know.. :P..
I m in crazy kiddo mood. :P

Highlights from the trip....

* Zai sleeping thru a gossiping session and waking up next day and saying "Aree..I was half asleep. I heard everythng. I didnt say anything bcz i was too tired"


* Gul saying "Raat ko insects soye hongena" when asked to shut the balcony door cz insects will come in :P


* Annie and Mona throwing undies on Zai even before the drinking started, sort of like preliminary exercise to getting drunk silly.


* Varu and Shilpa worrying about whether the drinking will make them lose their precious singer voices :P

* Thresholds of getting drunk : Zai is drunk if she is throwing down jokers while playing rummy, Mona is drunk if she is jumping up n down on d bed to "Lari chooti", Varu is drunk if she is yelling hysterically "thers smthng in my hairrrr", Shilpa is drunk if she is demanding more shots in high potched voice... and Annie the great is drunk is she is pointing at everyone present in the room n screeching "YOU ARE DRUNKKKKKK!!!!! I M NOTTTTT!!!!"

* Anoop and Karthik dressing up in long hair caps and bracelets and sling bags and getting down at each station on the return journey and fooling local people. Special mention to us all who acted (very well acting I may add) as enthusiatic fans scrambling for autographs.


* Anoop trying to get an ostrich sandwich from the pantry wala on Swaraj Express in thick Australian accent and trying to pass off as African.


* Anoop starting with "Gaur se dekhiye is aadmi ko..." at random times of the day / night at every random place possible. India TV has serious competition :)


* Ron eating 2kgs of chicken everyday and surviving thru it.


* Ankit not eating anything and saying "kya?" to everything asked to him. Complete with a glazed tired expression bcz of running to the loo every 10 seconds :P ROFL LMAO!!!!


* Shilpas voice going on the 1st day of the trip and she sounding exactly like Paulami from Roadies, and everyone joking about it thinking she is pretending and pissing her off!!! :P


* Annie stealing water from the extremely cute neighbour in the train in the dead of the night bcz there was none around and then striking up a conversation bcz of that (evil laugh... wht?? he was incredibly HOT!!! :P)


* The end of one love story and The beginning of another ..... (Keep guessing!!! :) )... oh n one love story getting a lil bit too enthusiatic!!! hehehehehe!!! (get a room guys!!)


* One "miss u" message that made my day and made me grin foolishly all thru the remainder of the trip... :)


* The skirmish between India and Taliban on the Nainital Lake.. LOLZ!!! Anoop Ron trying to steal the Green Duckie away from us White and Orange one... :)


* Ashwin n Rahul in a PINK duck, duly nicknamed "Gayduck" by us CC's and then them pretending to be pirates and shooting at us using imaginary guns.


* Random people in other Duckies / Dragons / Rowboats on the Lake taking our pics, cz we are simply SOOOO cool!!! We probably looked like movie stars to them.. hehehe.. :)


* Dumb Charades with Ankit acting... And while on the same topic, the IMPOSSIBLE home productions that were given starting from "Bhaagte Huye Bhoot Ki Udti Hui Lungi" (true bhojpuri movie) to "Sayed Amir ko supersonic sound ke mitocondriya se daar lagta hai" :O to "Aa Takli Teri Maang Bharu Fluroscent Color se taki main tujhe andhere mein dekh saku" :O :O :O


* Role playing by Anoop, Nik, Rahul, Me in our Kausani stay.. (Role playing is putting the CRAPPIEST tv channel and muting it and people try to say dialogues... its TOO much fun!!!)


* Jyot on the terrace of Ranikhet Hotel, describing Delhi slang to us, and accidently saying "B*** da L****" !!! Jyot!!! Gaali!!! WOW!!! LMAOOO


* Pralay saying B******* 187630 times on the entire trip, by the end of which the accent turned from Bhojpuri to Maharashtrian!!! :P


* Nana (bus driver whose name is undefined and he is known as thus, cz of uncanny resembelance to Nana Patekar) driving like a mad man enroute to Nainital Hotel when he missed a turn, prompting us all to say Hanuman Chalisa and beginning with Ganpati Aarti, all the while hanging on for our dear lives :P


* Anoop forcing his way onto the CC's (Comps Chics) Bandwagon and declaring himself Hot and CH (Comps Hunk)!!!
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So many moments.. I m sure I have missed many.. BUt i have started this now.. People add as many as u can think of and leave me the links... :)


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Last Train Ride with everyone.. Getting off at the station.. gathering around in a circle. laden with luggage and yet, noone wants to move towards the exit.. everyone stands there smiling at each other, till I cant stop my tears anymore. I say in a voice that breaks "Mujhe Ghar Nai Jaana...." and the floodgates open. Cry and Cry ... cry more than Farewell day, cz this is it.. truly the end.. The end of a magnificient 4 years of college life.. Suddenly everyone around me is crying too.. We hug and sing 'College Days'... tell loved ones how much they mean to me.. I cry extra hard hugging some people who mean a lot to me.. always will...


And then something makes me smile.. broadly.. in true Wizards style... the true Wizards spirit... someone says loudly "Areee yaar!!! kya ro rahe ho!!! Tuesday ko aana hai na college!!! yeh trip ke Pics submission ke liye... chalo chalo!!! Quad mein aajana 9 baje!!!" Everyone laughs and leaves ... walking slowly out of the station.. with a smile on the face..







"VJ Wizards" gave me the best time of my life, and I will forever be proud to belong to the BEST class that ever rocked VJTI.. May the Wizards Magic last forever!!! :)



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