Jun 21, 2009

I stood outside in the rain today...



I know from the sound...That the rains coming down
I know it from the sweet smell of earth... That the rains are here
And I know it from the loneliness that wells up in my heart
You aren’t here beside me...N That the rains are here...

I stood outside in the rain today,
Hugging myself as the rains soaked me to the bone,
Wishing it might wash away with itself,
What there is left inside of me...

I stood outside in the rain today,
And watched as the lightning flashed across the sky,
I like it out here, cold and wet, I m just a random Nobody,
No one even need know that I’m even there…

I stood outside in the rain today,
Tired of hiding behind the happy mask and the pretend smile,
And the rain does not let me lie anymore.. or hide anymore,
All this pain in my heart, while slowly each day I’m dying...

I stood outside in the rain today,
My tears leaving black streaks down my face,
And the blankness in my eyes is my sorrows only trace..
But this time I can blame it on the rain...

It’s raining today, and everything reminds me of you,
Making me wonder if you still love the clown-girl from your yesteryear…
She’s all grown up now, no dreams lighting up her eyes anymore
She’s all grown up now… But she still misses her Ro...



Yours,
An's...

P.S: There’s so much more to say.. But I’m afraid this will leave me feeling more empty than what I started with.. So Ill stop now..
P.P.S: "Pyar tumhe kitna karte hai... Tum yeh samaj nahi paoge.. Jab hum na honge toh bolo kya tab aaoge...."

23 comments:

Miss Sunshine said...

wow Annie. So hurtful it was. I mean, I could just feel, see you there :(

bondgal_rulz said...

GREAT lines there. But why the sadness????? :O

All okay???

Anupam Gupta said...

OH MAN!!!!!that was great annie....


NOW GET OVER IT U SILLY FEMALE!!!!!

IcE MaiDeN said...

@Appu, Isha, Pam
Jus suddenly nostalgic... Nuthin to worry abt... sometimes the memories are worth the pain.. :)

Quest said...

Lucky girl :D this means that the rain can't dissolve you ;)


PS: Atleast you had an acidic bath :P without the water puddle excuse :D

neeraj_only said...

atyachar from your side .

Life has more reason to smile then to make sad face ,
so smile .....annie....smile

P.s : well written poem . Liked it :)

Amal Bose said...

beautiful lines, but sad ones..

try to face life more boldly.. keep smiling n take care :)

IcE MaiDeN said...

@Neeraj, Amal

Hey... It was jus d rain.. Messed up my mind a bit.. :)

destiny's child... said...

I felt sad too...very nostalgic...

Btw, your blog template, layout everything is just smashing! one of the best i've ever seen! :)

IcE MaiDeN said...

@Destiny's Child,

Thank you!! :)

DPhatsez said...

'And it rained' by PArikrama was in the background when i read this. \m/

P.S. Hope you feeling ok though!

ani_aset said...

aaah annie :), loved it.
Don't use sms lingo, it is cruel for the poem.

Shanu said...

V touching!!

IcE MaiDeN said...

@Phil,

heyy!! i was listening to dat song a while back.. :) :)

@Ani_aset,

Hey, i changed d sms lingo. Thanks for pointing it out.. :)
Changed the post accordingly.. :)

@Shanu,
:) Thanks. :)

Aw.S.M said...

Annieeee..y do u do this to me??!! i m glad i didnt read this earlier...kitna sad hain!! and thats not the annie i know!! oye buck up re...be strong..everything passes with time..u just gotta let it..

Sweety hum sab hain na :)

The poetry as such is beautiful...really touching and equally saddening..but i know u...u ll move on and so i ll smile at the awesomeness of the rendition of this poem than the message

:)

luv
amith

IcE MaiDeN said...

@Ami,
n FINALLY someone found d time to comment... haa bhai, ab toh hum least important on d priority list ho gaye hai na.. :P :D

neway, jokes apart, i wasnt sad re, u knw hw much i treasure my memories wid him... d rains jus made d lonely spot ache a lil bit.. i m as awesome as ever... actually come to think of it, i m awesomer than u too... :P :D

aur, "hum sab" bole toh? accha wait, one is you, then thrs my cute frnd frm d north, then thrs d handsome guy frm upstairs, n thn thrs.....
:P :D (ducks d shoe u jus threw)
so its jus u then? sigh.. (grudginly) chalo thik hai, ill manage wid u beside me.. :)

U hav no idea, hw imp u still are, in the moving on part..
Thanks for nt lettin me break apart into a million pieces.. :)

luv,
Annie.
P.S: ok ok, no thanks.. ill rephrase, hw in d world did i get so lucky?! :) :) good enuf? :)

Misty Rhythm said...

hugs! i wish u'd stop hurting :(

IcE MaiDeN said...

@Misty,
I wish tht too... Almost over it, sometimes things have a way of resurfacing.. lik they hav never been gone.. :( :(

Jagged Edge said...

i agree in what u said above.. some memories are worth getting washed away in.. feeling empty later just so you realize how full life can get.. n it feels sweet in d end.. :)

iceprincess said...

hey iceM,
BEAUTIFUL AND POIGNANT..IS ALL I CAN SAY...
I HAVE A LUMP IN MY THROAT...
TAKE CARE....
HOPE THIS MAKES UP FOR ALL MY LOST TIME ON UR BLOG...
:)

http://whysoserioustoday.blogspot.com said...

awww this is awesome :)

ScarletTd1ar1es said...

the things about rains is. u can cry all u want and yet only u kno whether it was ur own tears that drenced u or the tears of the angels u never had.

IcE MaiDeN said...

omg, tht is so lovely! it deserves to be on the other blog :) :) putting it there NOW. :)

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