… or something you've come to a conclusion about.
- Angelina Jolie...
Lately I hav been at the lowest times ever of my life.. Actually I m not completely done wid the bad times... I m still struggling with it. But something about this situation has completely altered the way I deal with things. With Life.
I decided to get this Arabic tattoo, which means "Strength of Will" or "Determination" (Angelina Jolie has it, n thts where I got it from), on my right wrist. *yeah I really love Angie, bt tht’s not y I got this!! :P* This tattoo on my right wrist exactly mirrors whts on my left wrist. A faint hairline scar. Most of the people who hav met me, hav seen the scar, but very few hav actually asked me why n when I did it . I hope its out of respect for my privacy.
This tattoo has a very symbolic meaning for me. Both the lines on both my hands represent two of the most difficult and life-altering choices I hav made. The scar on my left wrist was probably the most cowardly decision of my life, and yet I don’t regret it. Wht followed in the aftermath was the most beautiful time of my life, with the most beautiful person ever. I cherish all those times. But since life has a way of coming to a full circle, n leading u on a way u least expect to go, situations always change. Once again, I found myself in a situation where I wanted to get a quick way out, because I didn’t want to face the pain nemore. But this time, *a million thanks to GRL POWER -- Na, shilpa, moni, prani, all ILMB grls* I decided to face it and get the best out of it.
On one hand there is cowardliness and refusal and givin up... On the other I have strength and determination and acceptance. Both representing tough choices and both combined… Making me the person I am. It’s never easy to hide from ur pain… Because u carry it everywhere u go. Some ppl think that the ones who dun show their emotions, are made of stone.. bt are they that whn they face themselves? No. Even in the refusal, I had hellish times.. really tough times. n the tattoo.. it hurts a million times worse to let go of something’s that u want to hold onto. To accept things u need tht sort of will power that trust me, everyone has, bt it requires a lot of inner searching.
I have never, n will not ever, regret the times tht led me to these two choices. everything has taught me something, and now I know wht it is to hit rock bottom and find ur way up again. now whnever I m goin to be facing difficult times, which I m sure there will be many in life, I will look at both hands of the situations. Exactly like my both hands. I will hav two choices.. n I will know wht is the 'right' choice to make.
P.S : Wht has happened in the past, was a result of many things put together. Plz dun judge me on the basis of things u don’t know, much less even understand. Allryt? Thanks. Luv u all lots. Mwah!!