More Pics of Preksha..

My Chotisi Toofan.. looking so innocent.. which she actually is not!!! hehe. :)

She is going to make one gorgeous bride someday!!! my god!! she looks so awesome!!! :)

Preksha dancing to a Rajasthani folk song - 'Ghoomar'.. love d song..

Its even better whn she dances to it.. :)

My Baccha is multitalented!!! Shes singing a wedding song for her Di.

Isnt she amazing?!!!

P.S : I love you!!! :)

Religious (Lack of) Tolerance??!!

I hav been meaning to write about this for a long time. There was this incident tht happened a while back, on one dull Tuesday morning as I went to college. It wasn’t very crowded in d train, and since it was sunny, I wasn’t standing at my usual spot near the door, I was standing inside the door, leaning against the frame inside. There was a line of ladies standing in the same way I was, opposite me in the same fashion as I was. And they all kept staring at me.

The reason for this blatant staring was confusing at first for me, and then I slowly realized what the problem was. Like following the progress of a ball, in the tennis match, the eyes of this one particular lady kept alternating between the pendent in my neck (my 21st Bday present) and the tattoo on my hand, which was very visible, as I loosely held the support rod which was above my head.

Religious (lack of) tolerance. Ah! The age old vice! U see, like in d pic above, the pendent I wear around my neck, glittering wid tiny diamonds and rubies, set around a yellow stone shaped lik Ganeshji, supposedly proclaims me as “Hindu”, while the tattoo inscribed on the inside of my wrist, in a calligraphic Arabic font, supposedly proclaims me as “Muslim”. On top of all that a friend called and I said “Aree Haan, Annie bol rahi hu..” Lolz. “Christian” now.

It was so irritating and disgusting and ridiculous at the same time to see the puzzled, some even bordering on dislike, looks on the faces of the women there. Why is it that most of us are identified with tags that call us Hindu or Muslim or Christian? Y cant we be jus Indian? Y cant we be jus Human? It’s a topic that I can go on ages about. But this isn’t about me. Its about what u think. Tell me people. What are ur views about this Religious Lack of Tolerance.

Annie.

P.S: For all those who want to knw so who i am then? I m Indian. Period.

Crimson Tears

Standing all alone… in the middle of nowhere…

No one who cares… breathing fake air…

She feels so distant, ripped from existence…

Got so transparent… lost all substance…

Her shattered heart pounds against her breast…

The pieces cutting holes in her chest…

Slowly she fades… as quickly she drowns…

In the crimson tears that run down her arm…

She wants to scream. She wants to shout…

A prisoner in her skin… wants to let it all out…

But she doesn’t make a sound… keeps it all inside…

Wants to breakaway… but instead she hides…

Alone in her room… quietly sobbing in her shell..

This is her fucked up life… her own private hell…

She’s lost everything that she’s ever had,

Crimson tears seep through her skin because it hurts so bad…

She’ll tilting on the edge, about to fall off…

Her soul so lacerated but mind is so soft…

Is that the smell of red again as it starts to run?

She stares at the crimson tears and wonders…

...What has she done?...

P.S: Don't freak out!!! Wrote this a LONG time back. Around a year back. Just thought of putting it up here.

P.S.S: I m NOT a cutter. Not anymore. Definitely don't encourage it. For all those who lead a secret life as this one, go seek help soon. Because you may not realize it right this moment, but life is way too beautiful. :)

Added Later: 

Not connected to the post... But something that I believe in.... have faith! everything works out in the end! :)

When you come to the edge of the light that you know,
and you are about to step off into the darkness of the unknown,
faith is knowing that one of two things will happen--
there will be something to land on…
or you will learn how to fly.

My Fav Football Team..

Zele, Ganesh, Deepak (yayyy deepppaaakkkk...weee lovveee uuuu!!!), Ron, RR King, Chinmay, Nikhil, Binu, Pratik, Ashwin...

P.S : Many others left. Wizards part - II : Karthik, sidd, ketan, abhya (the star), Saumi (kaka).

Thank You, To my bestest frnd!!!

Dear Na,
Words fail me. There are absolutely no words to describe what u mean to me. No words will ever be able to express my fear about how lost I would hav been widout u. Without u, I would hav had no escape. In front of u, I can cry, I can laugh, I can be silly, I can talk about flirting, I can talk about loving him still, I can talk about hating him sometimes, I can talk about fear for being alone forever, I can be me.

U were d first one i called , in tears, near hysterical, so close to a nervous breakdown..rem? N look at me now. I knw i m still acting pretty insane, goin ga-ga over hypotheical entities, givin u minor heartattacks, but I am so much better tahn otherwise. N its all bcz U r wid me. bcz U care. N tht is wht is already healing me. U really ought to knw that if u wouldnt hav talked all those long hours wid me, i would hav ended up killing myself.. bcz the pain was too much to bear. N look now.. "Strength of will". I m so proud of myself. Bcz ur proud of me.

Mona, U mean d world to me! No matter where u go, there is something between us that CANNOT be changed. No one will ever be able to take ur place in my life. I knw this note was long overdue.. bt better late than never huh?:)
I love u a lot. Thanks for everything!!.
BFF,
Ta...

Hes such a guy!!!

Once upon a time, in a land far far away,

Lived a weirdo who was born in May,

Crazy , Silly , Stupid and Funny,

Who remindes me of bugs bunny.

He makes me wait, on and on, Telling me he'll be back soon,

And doesnt show up till I m ready to tear out my hair,

Bored to death,i m just staring at the moon,

With my ass permenently flattened to my chair..

He always has the weirdest excuses to tell,

I was early, but My flatmate forgot the key,

I wanted to be early, but I lost my credit card,

Last bt not the least, D cabbie dropped me off in a weird dark alley.

He makes me so mad, I narrow my eyes,

And he attempts to make me melt wid his sighs,

Takes Haw on his side and begs with a innocent face,

Makes me think, he is such an adorable nutcase.

He makes me cross and he makes me yell,

whether he will change his ways, only time will tell,

If he ever promises and then is again late,

Tht will be the last night I'll spend in wait!!!

P.S: Men i tell u!!!

P.P.S : Pathetic attempt at rhyming. bt i had a lot of fun imagining the crazy always late guy and writing this. Hope u guys hav fun reading it too!!

P.P.P.S: Hmmpphhh!!! (glares)

Thank You!!!

There is one special Thank You Note that is pending this weekend..so here goes..

Dear Junglee,
Thank you for being wid me during my most trying times. I knw we dun talk all that much often as we used to in 1st sem, and i knw i havent been there for u in ur trying times, and yet seeing u beside me,makes my day. U should knw tht ur My special gift from God. Ur hugs make my day and ur jokes actually make me smile (I havnt laughed so much since last month as much as i laughed on ur reedition of 'O re Piya'..LOLZ).

I knw things havnt been easy for u lately, n they havent been easy for me either. I knw tht jus bcz ur smiling and joking dusnt mean ur Ok. But still seeing u being so strong abt it gives me hope that wid a frnd lik u, i can get over any shit that happens. All becz i knw tht u will be there, sitting next to me, either yelling ur head off bcz of some stupid mistake i do, or soothing wid with ur hand over my shoulder whn i cry.

Kal tune chat pe bola naa... U will always hav my shoulder to cry on. Well, ull always have mine. And i knw tht things are goin to be awesome for u soon. Whether wid her in ur life or not, bt they will be BETTER. I knw it! cz u deserve the best !!! Aur ganga jamna rone kik koi jarurat nahi hai... asi hum hai toh kya gham hai!!! :)

I m proud of havin a frnd lik u in my life. I love u lot, and i will alwsy stay beside u for whtever happens. One day we will be both sitting and laughing over these days and tell our how silly we were then!! Tak care sweetheart!!

Love Forever,
other Junglee..
P.S : Dekha, mere se pyar karta toh itna sab jhol jamela nahi hota!!! hahahaha!!! *wink wink*
P.P.S : lolz. lot of people demanded to knw who this junglee was... Aur kaun ho sakta hai.. lolz. Nik. The Crush. The elements rem?!! hehe. N I even had him mail me his pic so i can put it up..

Preksha.. (trying to make her smile..cz she is unwell)

"Masiii ...go awayyy... i m nt well... :( "

"OK .. lets do craft!!... (starting to smile!!)"

"Look wht Masi made for me!!! " (aww.. nething for u baby!!)

"Look how it swings!!! hehe"


"Dun I look pretty???!!!"

P.S : I Love u baby!!! Get well soon!! Mwah!! :)

P.S: Added later ...

My two most fav people in d world!!

Preksha n Haw..

Mwwwwaaaahhhh!!!!

P.S : added by popular demand and growing curoisity... here are preksha's parents. my Di n Jiju.

From Me to You... :)

Inspired by my dearest angel Seno.. here is my version of 'A desperate Plea'..

 


I'm silly.. and I'm sweet..
Let me talk.. and you look on,
I'm a kid.. and I'm vulnerable..
Let me fall.. and then pick me up..
I am a baby.. let me cry..
Gather me in your strong arms
And save me from all harm




Make me whole..Breathe new life into me
Cz I hav been lying empty for so long..
I am lonely and I am scared,
I feel hollow and my heart is sad..






Give all ur love to me and then some more
Make me believe in rainbows again
Hug me tight.. never let me go,
Take me out, and buy me balloons,
Bring me chocolate chip icecream.. make me melt,
Laugh with me.. And tell me I'm cute..
Make me fall in love with you baby..





I will smile and I will act crazy...
I wont let you see how much it hurts baby..
See through the fake and take my hand
Tell me it will be allright soon
And you'll be there till the end..






I m a little bit of sugar
And lots of spice,
I m a little bit of good
And lots of bad,
Smile at me like I'm the only woman u see
Smooth my curls and gaze into my eyes
Kiss me senseless and leave me breathless






I'll trust u with my heart, Don't let it break..
Cz I love the way u say my name,
Come to me baby
And kiss my fingertips..
Swish your wand and make it magical
Take me away..
Faraway..

P.S : Hope u know how to read between the lines.. :)

P.P.S : Silly i know!!! I m in a silly mood.. hehe.

P.P.P.S : For no one in particular!!! don't get any ideas.. hehe :P

Scribbles...

(jus some random scribbles.. shouldnt be taken as a poem.. jus thoughts..)

its difficult to breathe.. as invisible hands suffocate me
its difficult to sleep.. as the demons scare me
its difficult to forget everything... because i love him

i pretend to be allrite...when i am not
i smile ... when all i want to is break down and cry
i kiss you tender...when all i want is to scream
i sit still ... when all i want is to run away ... away

The worlds a bitch
whos got something against me
theres a road i am walking on
which noone else can see
am i walking away from something?or am i walking towards something?
i dont know
i dont know

what have i lost along the way?
what are the things i couldnt hold onto?
the mirror lies to me.. it screams calm
when theres a storm that rages inside me
that noone can see

i try to catch the raindrops
like i tried to gather people in life
like sand slipping from between outstreched fingers...everyone eluded me
till i was so alone
till all that was left was a broken me

night after night i lie in my empty bed,
looking at the shadows play across the ceiling,
No i wont cry, n i wont break.
No i wont cry..

i wont let the world see,
what they have taken away from me...

P.S: wrote a long time ago. since i m not that sad anymore, cudnt fix it up to mak it look like a proper poem. lolz. hope ill be writing nice stuff soon.. :)