DataWarehouse. Mining. ETL. DataBases. Extract Transform Load. Yawn.
Smiles. Long talks. Missed calls. Snooze. Wasted whole 3 days. Slept.
Study. Study. Flip Pages. Read Chat. Data Mining.
Poem. Engineer post. Think. Nostalgia. Architecture.
Classification. Clustering. K Nearest. Bayes Rule. NN. KDD.
Apriori. Quad Tree. Some Tree. Leaves. So jao. Zzzzz.
Call. Buttery. Sweet. Naughty. Sexy. Confused. :P
Overslept. Shit!!. Last Minute. Exam Hall. EVERYONE overslept. lolz.
Paper. Look around. **** *****. 1st bench. ##########. :O
write crap. Imagine Heros. LOST. Sawyer. Daydream. Write some crap.
Ro. Laugh. Frnds. Smile. Walk. Fruit Beer. Gossip. Pics.
Sleep. :)
P.S: Bad Paper... bt i can feel d last day drawing near. :)
May 11, 2009
May 9, 2009
Why I’m an enginner…
(A lot of this stuff won’t make any sense to the majority here. Plz pass over instead of reading this crap then. :P VJTI’ans plz continue and laugh extra loud)
1. I worship the guys who made Pentium. Seriously!! WOW they are cool!
2. I understand exactly what they mean by Intel Core2Duo T5550 @ 1.83Ghz.
3. I m a girl and STILL don’t bother to look into d mirror before I leave for college.
4. In 4 years my vocabulary has degraded to the level of the average frustrated guy who cusses all the time.
5. I have tried all settings, everywhere, on every single thing there is to change on my PC.
6. I have tried to repair all household appliances ranging from the TV remote to the ceiling fan.
7. I know how to use the soldering iron. And the jack plane. Lolz. Courtesy : BEE & Workshop. :D
8. I explain to my kindergardenrs whom I teach, things like wavelength of light and scattering when asked why the sky is blue. I even drew wht wavelength looks like. N got looks like :O.
9. Most of the times my lunch consists of a quick samosa/vada pav and chaas. (buttermilk) while simultaneously orkutting from d net lab.
10. I hav invented desperate ways such as stealing used files during submission time. (hi5 CC's… damn!!! I m so proud of myself for saving all dat money!!!)
11. I am online most of the night because of the concept that is commonly referred to as “Night Maarna”. My night time coffee is my savior.
12. I actually understand what has happened when someone says "Server is down" and “Netbeans killed my PC” (may the soul of the poor PC rest in peace)
13. I don’t dress up ever, I don’t know what half the things in d makeup box do and the concept of a date is unknown to me. :
14. The probability of finding a hot guy in my college is 0.0001.
15. I can type faster than u can blink.
16. Ok that gave me next point... I m excellent at exaggerating - courtesy 8 submissions. :)
17. I sing random lame stuff like "Tu hi toh mera HOST hai" :and write even lamer stuff like “Wails from the Wumpus world”
18. I consider myself as a well dressed grl if d color of my submission file matches my top. And also if I get a compliment that refers to me as female.
19. I love to talk about processors and I love to diss trical/tronix guys (Boo to u Karan!!) abt their fixation with 8085 when d whole world lives in d age of Pentium.
20. I once proxied for "Sachin Tendulkar" in 1st sem and got thrown out of class. Ahhh… fond memories!!!
21. I think my life would have been a LOT easier if Kirchoff, Newton, Lebnidz, Taylor, Tanenbaum, Laurents, Shannon, Spohn hadn’t existed. And also for dat reason I worship TECHMAX. :P
22.My conversation starts with "Wassa" and end with "TTYL" along wid P.S tht is "if u coming 2mrw mera proxy maar. roll no 26." (oh I shud probably add this too – everyone in class knows hw to sign my name. :P)
23.I discovered my exceptional talent at being a story teller during viva's.
24.I hav copied in exams approximately 3.618 times the amount u hav actually given exams. lolz.
25. My speciality is getting mirror marks in mid sems. Lolz. i.e. 03/30, 02/20, 01/10. :P
26. I know all shortcuts and function keys on the keyboard. Ctrl-D comes in handy when u watching something u shudn’t.. (smirks) and Alt- F4 comes in handy whn ur BUSTED!!! :P
27. For me the best reasons for celebration are : Reduced Syllabus, Mass Walkout, Exam postponement and Independence Day (last day of exam)
28. My favorite word is "F***" and my favorite phrase is "SHOT diya" :P
29. Whenever I got out wid frnds I’m the one who calculates to the nearest paisa the breakdown of how much who should pay.
30. Everyone in my family and neighborhood expects me to solve all their computer failure problems. I take immense pleasure in assuming a sober tone and saying "I will hav to format ur PC. I m afraid all ur data will be gone" n then act lik a hero whn I save it all. :P
31. Laminton Road is my Mecca. (All those who don’t know bt wud lik to get d best deals on electronic gadgets anyway, get off Grant Road and ask anyone where it is. Beware of ppl who will try to sell u weird stuff. Lolz. If ur a girl, don’t go alone.)
32. I spend more time at the xerox / printout wala than at home. :)
33. I think explaining the concept of mass bunk to nerds is more difficult than explaining the colors to a blind person.
34. Almost everything tht I do always comes down to "MATH".. I think in terms like Probability of this is.., Practically speaking this should be..., Assuming that.., Given that.. :P
35. I hav contacts wid the computer wala and he updates me everytime theres smthng new in d market. :)
36. The villain’s in my life are the IMPOSSIBLE amount of viruses I hav put my laptop thru. Someppl from class actually hav a CD of all viruses seen so far.
37. I love doing the victory dance which is a cross between Joey dance and Mundu dance.. this event takes place on the last day of term which is after all submissions are done.
38. My attendance in class is proportional to how early I sleep.
39. I crack technical PJ’s. I also understand/laugh at the lamest PJ’s possible.
40. I consider 40 to be the magic number :)
41. I know what are the full forms of the different file extensions. Bet u didn’t knw “jpeg” stands for Joint Photograph Experts Group
42. I copy stuff that can’t be copied on d net (baah!! Cant copied??? Yeah ryt!!) using print screen. Simple. Duh! Courtesy : the innumerable screenshots I have taken in my 4 years at college.
43. I am 21 years old and the most memorable thing I have ever done is throw paper balls at people when they are not looking. :P
44. After hours de-stressing means playing basketball in d quad. And catching the sun do down on dat majestic dome. :)
45. I think libraries have multiple uses. They double up as sleeping rooms, gossip rooms, Timepassing rooms, Listening to music rooms, Playing schooltime games such as X’s and O’s, BINGO, Name place animal thing (LOLZ).. and sometimes something even better. (wink wink)
46. If I got a nickel for every word of crap I ever wrote (exams or otherwise) I would retire ryt now as an incredibly rich woman.
47. If I sat to calculate the amount of money I wasted on assignment sheets, xerox’s, files, printouts, d stationery & even the inners and outers and the index sheets… I would suffer from a minor heartattack. :P
48. I hav hit a rheostat in frustration (whn I discovered it had 3 arms instead of d 2 I assumed) and miraculously got the right readings!! Lolz.
49. Once I wrote a whole program that does nothing and while the professor wasn’t looking added a simple statement at the end of the program tht said “cout<<”5”;” (display 5 on screen) and made him believe my program was working!! Smart eh?
50. KK- Pal, Summer of 69’, and College Days are the songs that made me cry on Farewell. I’ll miss everything on this list. Damn!! I m choked. :(
Annie..
soon-to-be-Bachelor of Computer Technology :P
1. I worship the guys who made Pentium. Seriously!! WOW they are cool!
2. I understand exactly what they mean by Intel Core2Duo T5550 @ 1.83Ghz.
3. I m a girl and STILL don’t bother to look into d mirror before I leave for college.
4. In 4 years my vocabulary has degraded to the level of the average frustrated guy who cusses all the time.
5. I have tried all settings, everywhere, on every single thing there is to change on my PC.
6. I have tried to repair all household appliances ranging from the TV remote to the ceiling fan.
7. I know how to use the soldering iron. And the jack plane. Lolz. Courtesy : BEE & Workshop. :D
8. I explain to my kindergardenrs whom I teach, things like wavelength of light and scattering when asked why the sky is blue. I even drew wht wavelength looks like. N got looks like :O.
9. Most of the times my lunch consists of a quick samosa/vada pav and chaas. (buttermilk) while simultaneously orkutting from d net lab.
10. I hav invented desperate ways such as stealing used files during submission time. (hi5 CC's… damn!!! I m so proud of myself for saving all dat money!!!)
11. I am online most of the night because of the concept that is commonly referred to as “Night Maarna”. My night time coffee is my savior.
12. I actually understand what has happened when someone says "Server is down" and “Netbeans killed my PC” (may the soul of the poor PC rest in peace)
13. I don’t dress up ever, I don’t know what half the things in d makeup box do and the concept of a date is unknown to me. :
14. The probability of finding a hot guy in my college is 0.0001.
15. I can type faster than u can blink.
16. Ok that gave me next point... I m excellent at exaggerating - courtesy 8 submissions. :)
17. I sing random lame stuff like "Tu hi toh mera HOST hai" :and write even lamer stuff like “Wails from the Wumpus world”
18. I consider myself as a well dressed grl if d color of my submission file matches my top. And also if I get a compliment that refers to me as female.
19. I love to talk about processors and I love to diss trical/tronix guys (Boo to u Karan!!) abt their fixation with 8085 when d whole world lives in d age of Pentium.
20. I once proxied for "Sachin Tendulkar" in 1st sem and got thrown out of class. Ahhh… fond memories!!!
21. I think my life would have been a LOT easier if Kirchoff, Newton, Lebnidz, Taylor, Tanenbaum, Laurents, Shannon, Spohn hadn’t existed. And also for dat reason I worship TECHMAX. :P
22.My conversation starts with "Wassa" and end with "TTYL" along wid P.S tht is "if u coming 2mrw mera proxy maar. roll no 26." (oh I shud probably add this too – everyone in class knows hw to sign my name. :P)
23.I discovered my exceptional talent at being a story teller during viva's.
24.I hav copied in exams approximately 3.618 times the amount u hav actually given exams. lolz.
25. My speciality is getting mirror marks in mid sems. Lolz. i.e. 03/30, 02/20, 01/10. :P
26. I know all shortcuts and function keys on the keyboard. Ctrl-D comes in handy when u watching something u shudn’t.. (smirks) and Alt- F4 comes in handy whn ur BUSTED!!! :P
27. For me the best reasons for celebration are : Reduced Syllabus, Mass Walkout, Exam postponement and Independence Day (last day of exam)
28. My favorite word is "F***" and my favorite phrase is "SHOT diya" :P
29. Whenever I got out wid frnds I’m the one who calculates to the nearest paisa the breakdown of how much who should pay.
30. Everyone in my family and neighborhood expects me to solve all their computer failure problems. I take immense pleasure in assuming a sober tone and saying "I will hav to format ur PC. I m afraid all ur data will be gone" n then act lik a hero whn I save it all. :P
31. Laminton Road is my Mecca. (All those who don’t know bt wud lik to get d best deals on electronic gadgets anyway, get off Grant Road and ask anyone where it is. Beware of ppl who will try to sell u weird stuff. Lolz. If ur a girl, don’t go alone.)
32. I spend more time at the xerox / printout wala than at home. :)
33. I think explaining the concept of mass bunk to nerds is more difficult than explaining the colors to a blind person.
34. Almost everything tht I do always comes down to "MATH".. I think in terms like Probability of this is.., Practically speaking this should be..., Assuming that.., Given that.. :P
35. I hav contacts wid the computer wala and he updates me everytime theres smthng new in d market. :)
36. The villain’s in my life are the IMPOSSIBLE amount of viruses I hav put my laptop thru. Someppl from class actually hav a CD of all viruses seen so far.
37. I love doing the victory dance which is a cross between Joey dance and Mundu dance.. this event takes place on the last day of term which is after all submissions are done.
38. My attendance in class is proportional to how early I sleep.
39. I crack technical PJ’s. I also understand/laugh at the lamest PJ’s possible.
40. I consider 40 to be the magic number :)
41. I know what are the full forms of the different file extensions. Bet u didn’t knw “jpeg” stands for Joint Photograph Experts Group
42. I copy stuff that can’t be copied on d net (baah!! Cant copied??? Yeah ryt!!) using print screen. Simple. Duh! Courtesy : the innumerable screenshots I have taken in my 4 years at college.
43. I am 21 years old and the most memorable thing I have ever done is throw paper balls at people when they are not looking. :P
44. After hours de-stressing means playing basketball in d quad. And catching the sun do down on dat majestic dome. :)
45. I think libraries have multiple uses. They double up as sleeping rooms, gossip rooms, Timepassing rooms, Listening to music rooms, Playing schooltime games such as X’s and O’s, BINGO, Name place animal thing (LOLZ).. and sometimes something even better. (wink wink)
46. If I got a nickel for every word of crap I ever wrote (exams or otherwise) I would retire ryt now as an incredibly rich woman.
47. If I sat to calculate the amount of money I wasted on assignment sheets, xerox’s, files, printouts, d stationery & even the inners and outers and the index sheets… I would suffer from a minor heartattack. :P
48. I hav hit a rheostat in frustration (whn I discovered it had 3 arms instead of d 2 I assumed) and miraculously got the right readings!! Lolz.
49. Once I wrote a whole program that does nothing and while the professor wasn’t looking added a simple statement at the end of the program tht said “cout<<”5”;” (display 5 on screen) and made him believe my program was working!! Smart eh?
50. KK- Pal, Summer of 69’, and College Days are the songs that made me cry on Farewell. I’ll miss everything on this list. Damn!! I m choked. :(
Annie..
soon-to-be-Bachelor of Computer Technology :P
May 7, 2009
2 down 2 to go!!!
Server. Client. Process. Threads. Transperency. ZzzzZ.
Backache. CORBA. Cobra. Hiss. Systems. CODA.
Missed Calls. 2 AM. Consistency. 2phase commit. Yawn.
Fault. Replication. Redundancy. Distributed. Shit.
Paper. Knw nothing. Look around. COPY. Crap. Bang head.
Limbopani. Samosa Pav. Long walk. Yawn. Sleep. FINALLY.
Nightmare. DC KT. Royally Screwed. Ab kya kar sakte hai. So jao. :P
zzzzzzz...
P.S: Seriously maardi saale ne!!! &*^$$%@!
Backache. CORBA. Cobra. Hiss. Systems. CODA.
Missed Calls. 2 AM. Consistency. 2phase commit. Yawn.
Fault. Replication. Redundancy. Distributed. Shit.
Paper. Knw nothing. Look around. COPY. Crap. Bang head.
Limbopani. Samosa Pav. Long walk. Yawn. Sleep. FINALLY.
Nightmare. DC KT. Royally Screwed. Ab kya kar sakte hai. So jao. :P
zzzzzzz...
P.S: Seriously maardi saale ne!!! &*^$$%@!
May 5, 2009
1 down 3 to go.
Multimedia Systems. Text. Images. Video. CCITT. Compression. Gtalk.
Awesome. Daisy Chaining. JPEG. TIFF. RIFF. Quick Time. mp3.
Display. RGB. Phosphor Triad. RAID. Disk, Redundancy.
Dreams. Server. Scanner. Video Conferencing. Ro. MLR 1.
Crap. 2 supplements. Snooze. 3 hours. Crap again. Done.
Sleep. Beauty Sleep. No wait. Tanenbaum. Distributed Computing. Sigh.
N here we go again. :
P.S: This aint a comeback post. Jus update. :P cudnt stay away for long naa. dats y. :)
Awesome. Daisy Chaining. JPEG. TIFF. RIFF. Quick Time. mp3.
Display. RGB. Phosphor Triad. RAID. Disk, Redundancy.
Dreams. Server. Scanner. Video Conferencing. Ro. MLR 1.
Crap. 2 supplements. Snooze. 3 hours. Crap again. Done.
Sleep. Beauty Sleep. No wait. Tanenbaum. Distributed Computing. Sigh.
N here we go again. :
P.S: This aint a comeback post. Jus update. :P cudnt stay away for long naa. dats y. :)
Apr 26, 2009
Hey ppl
I m leaving Blogsville for a while. After a long hour of comtemplating I hav decided against deleting myblog all together... bcz this place is my.. happy place.. if tht term even means anything.. I decided i dont want to delete it. But I need to get away. The reason, well lets jus say, I m hurt beyond anything I have been in a while now. N because of this particular hurt all d ones I had ignored.. hav all resurfaced.. and its making everything difficult. I m feeling d loneliest i hav felt in a long time.. n I m nt sure if I deserve this or not.. but life is too confusing ryt now for me to be all ok.
I hav a few post-its for some ppl that i want to dish out now :
1. If u are anyone of my college friends (wait if its u pest.. shoo gt away!! ur banned from my blog rem??!! if u ask me anythng abt my blog next time ill whack u, u asshole!!!)..ok so then plz ignore this. DONT ask me whts wrng. I will tell u whn i m ready ok? I m nt sure I want to hear u say i-told-u-so ryt now.
2. All ILMB... Quick i need u again. Reply on community topic!!! (wails loudly and asks for a group hug)
3. YOU, the reason for all this, I want u to knw I m sorry. I m sorry I was honest abt all this. I m sorry for so many thngs... damn!!! I have never said this much sorry to anyone. I dont knw if things will be better whn I come back. I hope they will be..
Luv to everyone.. I'll miss u all.. (teary eyed)
Annie.
I hav a few post-its for some ppl that i want to dish out now :
1. If u are anyone of my college friends (wait if its u pest.. shoo gt away!! ur banned from my blog rem??!! if u ask me anythng abt my blog next time ill whack u, u asshole!!!)..ok so then plz ignore this. DONT ask me whts wrng. I will tell u whn i m ready ok? I m nt sure I want to hear u say i-told-u-so ryt now.
2. All ILMB... Quick i need u again. Reply on community topic!!! (wails loudly and asks for a group hug)
3. YOU, the reason for all this, I want u to knw I m sorry. I m sorry I was honest abt all this. I m sorry for so many thngs... damn!!! I have never said this much sorry to anyone. I dont knw if things will be better whn I come back. I hope they will be..
Luv to everyone.. I'll miss u all.. (teary eyed)
Annie.
Everything Changes
There was a chill in the air that evening. She pulled her overcoat a little closer to her, hugging herself, that cold autumn day. She needed to keep herself for breaking apart... Atleast not in front of him. Her throat ached and her eyes stung. She hadn’t slept a wink in the night and she felt like she would cry any moment.
The lump in her throat turned more painful when she saw him. He stood at the other end of the empty basketball court. Her breath seemed to catch as she saw him. They walked slowly towards each other… A walk that seemed to take forever when all it took for a few ticking seconds. As she started taking the steps she could feel herself changing. Her happy, funny and perpetually laughing mask seemed to be out of the closet. She pushed away the thoughts and the sleepless night and smiled a bright smile.
"Heyya Sweetypie"
He looked at her with eyes filled with a sea of emotions she couldn’t fathom. He looked at her with a desperation she didn’t want to thaw at the cold that settled around her heart. She wouldn’t ever let him see how much she ached on the inside.
"Are u ok?"
No I am anything but ok. She took d basketball and started to dribble away from him. Refusing to meet his eyes. "Yes of course I am you dummy!!! Why do u ask?"
He appeared in front of her out of nowhere, taking advantage of her being so tiny, blocking off her escape. He took d basketball with no difficulty and put it out of her reach, like the way one would do with a child.
"Heyyy..." She frowned. She cussed. He smiled and that nearly drove her crazy.
"Will u talk to me?" He said turning serious again.
She sighed. Resigned and defeated. They turned and walked to d edge of the court. Sitting down on d steps near d court, he began, "Are u upset with me?"
Yes I am. "Of course I m not… What makes you say that?" she said.
He said in a rush, "You wouldn’t pick up my calls... You wouldn’t reply to my messages.. Where have you been?". His eyes seem to burn down to the depths of her soul, willing her to say the truth.
I was hurting... U hurt me. "I was busy"
"So busy, you couldn’t reply back?"
Do I even exist for you? Can you even see how much I love u? "Areee baba... I was tied up all day. I m here now am I not??"
"You aren’t upset about me being with her are u?" He asked with a worried face.
Yes. I m so upset I can feel my heart break. "Nooo... Why would I be? You are happy. And that makes me happy. You crazy idiot!!"
"I love her a lot. She makes me so happy I can’t imagine being with anyone but her. She makes me feel things I didn’t know I could feel again"
A headache seemed to be building up.. tapping away annoyingly at d inside of her temple. Why was she even here? She should have listened to her best friend. She should at home, in her bed, shut away from d world... she should be alone. She felt something die inside her at his every syllable. She just smiled.
He looked away. Smiling foolishly. She wondered what he thought about? What would she be doing right this moment. What will she say when he proposed to her that night. What would she wear? How she would look in d flowing gossamer veil of white at their wedding? Something that felt horribly like tears prickled at the inside of her eyes. His joy seemed to vibrate out of him… touching everything around him. It made her feel like someone had driven a knife all the way down to the deepest corner of her heart.
Everything screamed at her to tell him about what she was feeling.
I love you so much it makes me crazy to think about you with another woman. I have loved you ever since I saw you first day at college. U had looked so wonderful in your white shirt and blue jeans it had made me go crazy. All these years I was your best friend when every single day I wanted to be more. I wanted to be the woman you imagined spending your entire life with.
It took her super human strength to speak.
“I am happy for you Sweetypie.... You deserve the best. She is very lucky she got you, you know.”
He looked at her then, smiling widely, the crow feet at the corner of his eyes. She wanted to look at anywhere but his face.. and yet she couldn’t stop from falling into love. All over again. With those eyes and that foolish smile. No matter what her mind screamed, she couldn’t look away. He came closer, drawing her in a hug. Kissing d top of her head. She allowed herself a few moments more to dream. She inhaled his scent.. of soap, shampoo, cologne and him. She held him tight because she knew maybe this was the last time she was holding him that way. She squeezed her eyes shut, ordering the tears to hold themselves.. just a few moments more.
She mumbled “I love u.. I love u more than she does.”
He laughed. The rich sound echoing in the empty quad. He ruffled her hair and said “Of course you do. I know you do jaan. You'll always be my number one. You know tat, right!!”
They broke apart and he held her still, smiling at her. She smiled at wooden smile, willing herself to get up and leave.
Please make me stay. Please Please hold me once more. “I need to go. Ill seeya later ok?”
He got up too, snatching the ball and putting in a layup. He said “Ok. Ill call u about what happens tonight. Though I know what the answer will be. You get to be my best man ok??!! Hahahaha..”
She could no longer smile.. starting to walk away from him.. the basketball.. college.. He called out, “Oye.. say Bye atleast!! ”
She waved without looking back. Every step she took seemed to put more distance between them than anything else.
As she reached the edge of the court, he called out again, “Nothing changes.. I love u too ok?”
She stopped in her steps and this time she could stop the tears that came. She nodded and waved again. He couldn’t see because he was already on the phone.
She started to walk again. Putting her hands in her pockets, as the breeze started to pick up. As the day started to get colder.
She whispered, “Everything changes.”
P.S: DO NOT DERIVE ANY CONCLUSIONS OUT OF THIS.
The lump in her throat turned more painful when she saw him. He stood at the other end of the empty basketball court. Her breath seemed to catch as she saw him. They walked slowly towards each other… A walk that seemed to take forever when all it took for a few ticking seconds. As she started taking the steps she could feel herself changing. Her happy, funny and perpetually laughing mask seemed to be out of the closet. She pushed away the thoughts and the sleepless night and smiled a bright smile.
"Heyya Sweetypie"
He looked at her with eyes filled with a sea of emotions she couldn’t fathom. He looked at her with a desperation she didn’t want to thaw at the cold that settled around her heart. She wouldn’t ever let him see how much she ached on the inside.
"Are u ok?"
No I am anything but ok. She took d basketball and started to dribble away from him. Refusing to meet his eyes. "Yes of course I am you dummy!!! Why do u ask?"
He appeared in front of her out of nowhere, taking advantage of her being so tiny, blocking off her escape. He took d basketball with no difficulty and put it out of her reach, like the way one would do with a child.
"Heyyy..." She frowned. She cussed. He smiled and that nearly drove her crazy.
"Will u talk to me?" He said turning serious again.
She sighed. Resigned and defeated. They turned and walked to d edge of the court. Sitting down on d steps near d court, he began, "Are u upset with me?"
Yes I am. "Of course I m not… What makes you say that?" she said.
He said in a rush, "You wouldn’t pick up my calls... You wouldn’t reply to my messages.. Where have you been?". His eyes seem to burn down to the depths of her soul, willing her to say the truth.
I was hurting... U hurt me. "I was busy"
"So busy, you couldn’t reply back?"
Do I even exist for you? Can you even see how much I love u? "Areee baba... I was tied up all day. I m here now am I not??"
"You aren’t upset about me being with her are u?" He asked with a worried face.
Yes. I m so upset I can feel my heart break. "Nooo... Why would I be? You are happy. And that makes me happy. You crazy idiot!!"
"I love her a lot. She makes me so happy I can’t imagine being with anyone but her. She makes me feel things I didn’t know I could feel again"
A headache seemed to be building up.. tapping away annoyingly at d inside of her temple. Why was she even here? She should have listened to her best friend. She should at home, in her bed, shut away from d world... she should be alone. She felt something die inside her at his every syllable. She just smiled.
He looked away. Smiling foolishly. She wondered what he thought about? What would she be doing right this moment. What will she say when he proposed to her that night. What would she wear? How she would look in d flowing gossamer veil of white at their wedding? Something that felt horribly like tears prickled at the inside of her eyes. His joy seemed to vibrate out of him… touching everything around him. It made her feel like someone had driven a knife all the way down to the deepest corner of her heart.
Everything screamed at her to tell him about what she was feeling.
I love you so much it makes me crazy to think about you with another woman. I have loved you ever since I saw you first day at college. U had looked so wonderful in your white shirt and blue jeans it had made me go crazy. All these years I was your best friend when every single day I wanted to be more. I wanted to be the woman you imagined spending your entire life with.
It took her super human strength to speak.
“I am happy for you Sweetypie.... You deserve the best. She is very lucky she got you, you know.”
He looked at her then, smiling widely, the crow feet at the corner of his eyes. She wanted to look at anywhere but his face.. and yet she couldn’t stop from falling into love. All over again. With those eyes and that foolish smile. No matter what her mind screamed, she couldn’t look away. He came closer, drawing her in a hug. Kissing d top of her head. She allowed herself a few moments more to dream. She inhaled his scent.. of soap, shampoo, cologne and him. She held him tight because she knew maybe this was the last time she was holding him that way. She squeezed her eyes shut, ordering the tears to hold themselves.. just a few moments more.
She mumbled “I love u.. I love u more than she does.”
He laughed. The rich sound echoing in the empty quad. He ruffled her hair and said “Of course you do. I know you do jaan. You'll always be my number one. You know tat, right!!”
They broke apart and he held her still, smiling at her. She smiled at wooden smile, willing herself to get up and leave.
Please make me stay. Please Please hold me once more. “I need to go. Ill seeya later ok?”
He got up too, snatching the ball and putting in a layup. He said “Ok. Ill call u about what happens tonight. Though I know what the answer will be. You get to be my best man ok??!! Hahahaha..”
She could no longer smile.. starting to walk away from him.. the basketball.. college.. He called out, “Oye.. say Bye atleast!! ”
She waved without looking back. Every step she took seemed to put more distance between them than anything else.
As she reached the edge of the court, he called out again, “Nothing changes.. I love u too ok?”
She stopped in her steps and this time she could stop the tears that came. She nodded and waved again. He couldn’t see because he was already on the phone.
She started to walk again. Putting her hands in her pockets, as the breeze started to pick up. As the day started to get colder.
She whispered, “Everything changes.”
P.S: DO NOT DERIVE ANY CONCLUSIONS OUT OF THIS.
Apr 24, 2009
Submission Week Makes Evryone go MAD!!!
I started to write a post abt this.. bt no matter wht i cudnt convey jus as much as i wanted to.. so I hav put jus a few of d MANY MANY pics we have taken this last submission of our lives..
"I m really gonna miss these days
I am gonna miss my college days
Yaad hai woh saare lectures, humne jo bunk kiye the
Proxy ka pakda jaana, Lafde kya kam kiye the
Aur Baahar aakar woh kehna, "Saala kya Bekaar paper set kiya tha yaar"
Milta 1st class kabhi yahaan, toh lagti thi KT kabhiiiii
Laut kar ab naa aayenge woh mastibhare din kabhi
hoh dil yeh apna kahe ki aye dostonnnnn
I m really gonna miss these days
I am gonna miss my college days"
Everyone diligently COPYING!!! hehehe!!!
Nik d idiot!!! last minute copying!!! wid music ofc.. music is an engineers best frnd!!! :)
"Aeee...Tujhe ID kuthe aahe??!! "("where is ur ID".. d everyday greeting from d watchman we will miss!!! :(("
My sweetest lil dimpled angel.. wid a makeshift crown. Hehehe :)
"All d 4 years we wondered wht d inside of this cabin feels like!!! Look at Varu wid d cap n me wid d 'aila' expression n d sticks!!! Shilpa actually looks ready to kill someone!!! Hehehe"
"Always wanted to get a pic there... Yaaayyyy!!! finally got it!! hehehe!!"
Look at wht we found in Gul's Bag!!! Ooooo !!! that grl in d pic looks desperate!!! Hehehe!!!(Check out d height difference.. No more 6 footers for me plzz!!! hehehe!!!)
Best Friends Forever!!! (CMU or Gatech.. No place will ever be too far!! MWAHHH!!!)
"Lalalalalal!!!!! Finally DONE wid d submissionssss!!! Yaaayyyyyyy!!!"
Mr. Microsoft wid d Ms.Wipro, Ms. Accenture, Ms. Citius, Ms. CMU/Gatech & Ms. SUNY... !!! Missed Mr. Google on this one who was talkin d pic!! :P Dont look too closely!!! U'll see phelgm!!! hahahah!!! (eyes luk nice in dis one!!)
Shot Gang at what they do best... SHOT DIYAA!!! (Non Engineers : 'Shot' is the most often used word in our dictionary.. which basically means bugging someone in d worst possible way. hehe!!)
Zai at what she does best... DHAPPING files... LOLZ!!!
D Files that made our life so miserable and fun at d same time!!! Ill miss u and NOT miss u to!!! Hehehe!!!
Peek A Booo!!!! :)
"I NEVER noticed all these CPU'sin my 4years!!! lolz.!!!"
Gullo rani.. kaho toh deepak ko bula duuu... :) (I jus wannnaaa sllleeeepppp!!!!)
"Aek toh main phoolein jaise naasukk... aur itne saare submissions... sheee thoooo" (poulami fans!! hehe REFER : Roadies Hell down Under.. if u dnt knw who poulami is!!!)
Finally Done!!! already gone zzzzzzzzzz.....
P.S : And THEN came the Farewell Party...
I wont put any pics.. but a LONG post on wht happened!!
Apr 18, 2009
Just TP..
"Hawa me udta jayeee...(look at tiny hands)"
"The Greek Godesses & The Bling Chic"
"The Greek Godess & The Bling Chic & The Ballerina"
"OnlY D BlinG ChIc.. heheh!"
P.S: My new slacks... Oh they are sooooo comfy!!! :)
P.P.S: I like these sandals... They are so bling.. hehehe :)
Apr 16, 2009
Wails From The Wumpus World!!!
Oh Wumpus! Oh Wumpus!
Ur the latest version of virus!
The time has come, cant u see..
To warn everyone of ur treachery!!
You hav made Varu's hair curl in frustration
And Annie curses u all d way to damnation
Shilpa still cherishes the lovely dates in ur dungeon,
But Lo! when she came out, she was a curmudgeon!!!
Your froggy eyes like tiny dents in flesh,
Your harsh voice irritates us no less
Your cackling laugh resounding in the hall
Your desire to hav everyone at your beck and call!!!
Varu is ready to crack under the pressure!!
As Annie tries (unsuccessfully) to be a go-getter..
Though Shilpa still blushes at ur glances
She is also about to reach teh end of her tether!!!
Whenever u pass, u leave in ur wake, a terible "STENCH"
For us there is nowhere to run, not even a bench
The thick gross hair that crowds ur ear
Its a wonder!!! Can u even hear??!!!
Oh Wumpus! Oh Wumpus!
Look at the lovely day with its beautiful breeze
Plz Plz be kind Oh Wumpus!!
Give us a days leave!
So Varu can go & dance with "______" (dash)
& Shilpa can have a "Bournville" bash..
Oh n Annie!! Shes anyway all d time on "long distance" gtalk,
Maybe this time, she can go have a long "walk"!!
Oh Wumpus! Oh Wumpus!
U eat anyone who enters ur "Smelly" abode
But we will bear all ur eccentricites
Cz we want to grab our "Glittering" gold!!!!
Written by Annie
With exceptional inputs from Varu.. lolz!
(Shilpa GLARES!! hehe..)
P.S: Anyone who has had "Artificial Intelligence" as a subject will knw d terms used here. others jus google "Wumpus". lolz. :)
Apr 13, 2009
Why Breaking Up can be good...
I’ll not beat around d bush here, about why I m writing this post. I had a breakup. Very recently. Lets not get into the why’s and when.. because it’s a rather long and messy story. So anyway, I decided to write this, because.. Damn!! Breakups can be good. I had a LOT of fun coming up with some of these reasons along with my rocking friends.. (\m/) So here goes :
1. You find out who your guardian angels are. Seriously! I didn’t know I had so many. Across all sorts of distances and even borders (Mwah! You know who you are!) You also find out who your real friends are. The ones who don’t say anything except “What d hell are you doing alone on a Sat night..??? Lets Parttyyyy!!!”
2. You get to hang out with friends so much more that it WILL make you wonder what the heck were u doing all this while.. lost in your own world, when you should have been enjoying life with these friends!
3. You get so much time for yourself, that suddenly, unlike other times, you have a million things to do and so little time. Hehe. (I have been wondering what to catch up with first, the guitar lessons or the unwatched seasons.. lolz!)
4. You get to spend a lot of time with the family. Meaning you are out of your room, and off your phone, and actually listening to how did mom’s day go. And that's a good feeling!
5. You get to stare at cute guys asses. (Hi5!!) Hehe. (Ok, I'll be honest, earlier it was just the faces. Now you can blatantly check them out!) (Courtesy : ILMB, CC’s)
6. You get to burn stuff. Haha. TRUST ME! It's an awesome feeling (rem when in FRIENDS, they try to burn and cute firemen show up!) (Courtesy : Pam)
7. You can FINALLY go to the mall with the sole purpose of buying lingerie. Lolz. I realized its actually true!! Guys always hurry you through the most important section a woman’s gotta have.. n with the guy gone you have plenty of time for laces and satins. (wink wink) (Misty Rhythm gave me d idea through this post)
8. You can leave.. umm.. certain places unshaven. (courtesy: Tinku)
(I got a LOT of raised eyebrows for this one.. so for everyone's benefit i clarify.. i DIDN'T come up with this, n I DIDN'T mean what you pervs think!!! i meant the goddamn hands duh!!!)
9. Your friends wont mind sharing you with other friends.. hehehe!! Meaning you can juggle between multiple ‘friends’ :D (Courtesy : Rahul *Rahul’s Quote : “shee yaar!! I feel like having an extra affairal affair with all these faltu ka restrictions she’s put on me”*)
10. You get to see for yourself what an impossibly wonderful, strong and beautiful person u really are!!! Trust me on this, nothing could do you more good than breaking up with someone who wasn’t meant to be. Good, messy, bad, spiteful.. whatever way it ends, You'll learn a lot about yourself than any other experience you have ever had!! :) :) :)
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